What have you done today....

...to make you feel proud? Alright people, it is here. My official start off of what I hope to be a healthy transition with my weight, my mentality and my emotional eating.

Tonight is the start of The Biggest Loser. Kent and I have slated this date as also our start to kick off a new way of life for us. I've been doing my best to live in the moment and make positive changes. The Biggest Loser has been a show I have enjoyed watching and hoping that someday I will too have those successes. Some may find the TV show pathetic or have some form of judgement on it. Yes, they are big on their product endorsements. Yes, they find ways to get people to open up etc and have a good cry and Jillian can turn around and be their emotional support buddy. But, there also can be a form of inspiration in this show that is available if one is open to it. I don't like the "cattiness" of the game. It would be tough for me to compete in this show as I am always so happy when people have lost weight etc (except for that bitch Vicky from a few seasons ago. She was awful!)

My hope with today is that I will place myself on the top of my priority list. I have weekly goals for Kent and I to build on. This, being week one, is for us to keep a food journal of everything we eat. Of course we will want to be careful of what we are eating, get exercise etc. The main focus of this week though is to really be in the mindset of the foods we choose. Was I really hungry, or was it something else? Where could I have made a better choice? There is something that happens when you have to write everything down. You are more accountable. I plan on doing this as religiously as possible. I would like to continue it week by week as food is the thing for me.

So along with weighing ourselves this morning (YIKES) we also took these fabulous photos of ourselves.









Now I don't expect to see this incredible change over the season, we are not trying to lose 100+ pounds. Even subtle changes can make a world of difference for Kent and I. Our health is pretty good, but we both have gained weight, our clothes are too tight, and we just don't feel that great about ourselves. Along with the health benefits of losing weight I hope to also gain back some of that self-esteem that has dwindled over the past few years. I honestly thought that if I could just find someone to love me, get married etc., these negative feelings about myself would go away. How wrong was I! On a positive note I have been able to discover this quickly in our relationship and understand this is not the case, at least not for me it isn't. I also am serious about trying to get pregnant so getting healthier is a win-win for both myself and any future babies.

So here's to day one, of week one. I'm also having to plan for this evening as I have a cocktail party to go to and it doesn't end until 8:30pm. I am going to work on getting some food beforehand and somehow get some type of fitness in today. This is going to be tricky.