Looks like a pump....feels like a sneaker

This ad for Easy Spirit shoes makes me laugh my butt off. Those ladies in their bad 80's business suits, complete with shoulder pads and white nylons, wearing high heels and playing basketball.

Kent and I have officially begun month number 2 of our health/weightloss journey and I couldn't be more pleased. We have been working out religiously and our food options have been great. I am back in the kitchen again and almost surprising myself. It was a little ridiculous to start a rosemary crusted pork tenderloin and homemade low-fat risotto at 7pm last night, but it was quite tasty when we were finally able to eat.

This morning while I was getting dressed I felt a little excitement as I started picking out what I was going to wear. For the first time in several months I wasn't afraid to try on a pair of pants. Now there are many pairs that are still too tight, but I have a few new pairs to add to my "current selection." I'm not really in the mood anymore to beat myself up about my constant yo-yoing. What is really more important is to focus on how to not find myself in this situation of gaining and then struggling to lose. The reason of why I over eat is the trouble. Food has always been my comfort, even at the smallest of age. Now that I am married I am finding myself feeling trapped by my food portions as I think the plates I dish up should be equal portions. I am a big girl, but I don't need to eat the same that Kent is, particularly since he is a man and is not sitting at a desk all day long. I am also that type of person who eats because other people are eating, not because I am hungry. It is such a struggle, but the more I stay in the moment, and ask myself why I am about to eat something, it helps. I think classifying myself as a food addict is tough, but in many ways it is the truth. I will always struggle with my weight. Struggling is not always a negative thing though. Maybe I can think of myself as focusing on my health.



Before I met Kent I was pretty active with my fitness and set out many goals. Here is a picture of me finishing a sprint triathlon. My trainer Chris and I usually do these competitions together and she will run me in to the finish line. What I love it that at the end of the race I am usually so tired that I don't think I will be able to make it, and then I see her waiting for me. She motivates me to push it to the very end. We all need motivators in our life, and right now that motivator is me. Last night while I was on the treadmill I was feeling tired, but those last few minutes I just went for it. It felt great and I am looking forward to more of these great feelings of accomplishments.