Shhhh....It's a secret.

Last night Kent and I curled up on the sofa and I popped in a Netflix video. I'm a little embarrassed to say that it was the pop phenomenon known as The Secret. Most people were aware of this by Oprah and it was a national bestseller. The month of December was a little rocky for me personally so I went on a bit of a tangent and decided I needed to really shake my mood and mentality. I went to Netflix and moved The Secret to the top of our play list. When it arrived I was laughing about it, but I decided I was going to give it my best shot.

Right when the video started playing it became hokey. There was flashing lights and weird sound effects. A woman at the beach looking frazzled then she appears again to be waking out of a bad dream. I felt bad that Kent was sitting next to me. I chose this and here he was staying beside me to watch it.

In a nutshell though I actually enjoyed what the meaning was, probably because it really was not that secretive at all. The premise is to focus on your end goals of what you want...a new house, a new job, more money, better health etc. Going all the way to the end and seeing how you will feel at a job that you enjoy and thrive at. Don't think about the steps it takes to get that new job---the resume, schooling, interviewing etc. Focus on the end, what you really want, and it shall find you. I know that athletes have been doing this for years. They focus on going for the gold in the Olympics. They don't think about the hours and hours of training, they focus on that gold medal around their neck.

I am really concerned about my weight gain and I am going to give this a shot. I am going to see myself at the healthy weight I want. I am going to see myself having a healthy pregnancy and a healthy family. I don't care too much about money, finding a parking spot or material items. I really need to find that inner person in me who is capable of reaching a good point of health and hone in on that goal.

I don't know if the secret is for everyone. I personally believe that any postive thinking has to be a good thing. This morning at work we had a server problem and nothing was working. They called me in a panic as I was not in the office yet. I took a big breath, thought about everything quickly, and found a way to resolve it in a calm manner. They laughed in the lunchroom today when I told them I was practicing the secret because I usually get all wild over nothing. I know my husband will appreciate a little calmness in our world as well.