Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose

This song is playing in my head this morning as a multitude of crap is swarming around. You would think that because I had almost 10 hours of sleep last night that things would be fabulous as I woke up, that has not been the case today.

1) Kent's car was tagged again by some A-hole with nothing better to do

2) Apprarently I washed my hair twice today with conditioner. I kept thinking that it felt weird while I was curling it. Yes, I use a curling iron, I have yet to figure out how to "round brush it"

3) I have developed tendonitis in my right elbow and my right ankle is screwed up too. I went to the Dr. and was told that I needed to quit with the high heels, ice my elbow three times a day and to just take it easy. Yeah, this growing waistline of mine is so not going to accommodate this. On a budget stand point I at least agreed to Kent purchasing generic brand peas to ice my arm with. No need for organic as an ice pack.

4) Due to #3 I had to wear these bad boys to work today. And it is a wonder I'm not singing, "I'm bringing sexy back" while I am walking into work.


Oh..and these f*ing things were $145.00. Shoot me now.

5) Work is so frustrating anymore that I swear my weight loss is not going to happen if I can't chill out. Stress produces Cortisol which is a serious no-no for a gal like me.

6) My family is at each other's throat. I'm often thrown in the middle which grows really old.


So..how to snap myself out of this. I plan on making a simple dinner and literally going to Denali, turning on the lights in the spin class room and riding my big butt off. My cripled body can handle the spin bike. I also was trying to find a new way to motivate myself as it is so not happening lately. I've got a few options brewing in my brain that I am going to ponder for a bit.

79th times a charm

My sarcastic tone and uncompromising wit can get the best of me at times. Yet, I will do my best to make this short, but sweet post, an ode to my fabulous husband. The doom and gloom economy has finally hit MD Contracting Services, the business my husband shares with his partner Eric. M is for Eric's last name Messenger, D is for Kent's last name Davis. Prior to their joining of their contracting skills they would honestly speak 2-4 times a day about everyday sort of things; sort of what I imagine Oprah and Gayle do. I started referring to Eric as Gayle, to the point that when I saw him in public I would look at him and ask, "How's it goin' Gayle?" When they decided to join their businesses and they were looking for a name I instantly said GO contracting services, but they didn't want to say that GO stood for Gayle and Oprah. Really, why not? Can't honestly imagine the problem here. Then they decided on MD Contracting Services and my quick thought was...We make house calls. Every business needs a tag line, something quick and catchy to be remembered by. They build and remodel homes....we make house calls. Brilliant! Back to where I was going with this. Since people are in foreclosure, laid off or totally afraid to spend money Kent and Eric (or Oprah and Gayle) are not in their usual swamped and digging themselves out of work state of mind. Literally, they are slow, like they can possibly find themselves able to take a nap in the afternoon. Hmmm...that's nice.

Let me get to the point. Some husband's might go sit in a bar, watch sports or look at porn? Maybe? My husband called me this afternoon and I heard this weird noise in the background. I was like, what is that? He literally said to me, "I'm on my second batch of blueberries." I didn't know he was at home so I was confused. I was like, are you at home? He was like, yeah, for a bit. Then my smart ass self told him he could go ahead and make the bed and do the dishes. His reply, "I already have?" Why do I have to open my mouth? As I came home I realized he actually folded all his clothes and put them into his closet and nothing is lying on the floor. He actually made the bed and..da da da...placed strategically all 7 pillows. Kent has disagreed on making the bed since we have been together. He questions the reasoning behind it, but all I can say is...God I love you! It has only taken 79 times of my wishing and hoping and praying for you to see the joy of having a bedroom with no clothes anywhere on the floor. AND a completely made bed with 7 pillows and all.

PS- He seriously came home when I was just about to finish this and instantly started on his freezing of the 10 pounds of berries he picked. LOVE IT!

Daily Affirmation

Stuart Smalley apparently should be my mentor as his 12-step positive affirmations are a successful way to recorrect years of bad thinking. Sweet Jesus, I can see myself now...staring at myself lovingly in a full length mirror; telling myself how fabulous I am. These positive affirmations will be a giant leap ahead of the normal crap that fills my brain. I'm going to give it a try though, but maybe I will just have my affirmation in the car, or shower, as I don't see myself looking into a mirror and having a one-on-one with myself. I do see myself wanting to change though. I see myself having a more positive future and outlook. I see myself calmly finding ways to enjoy my life and successes and gently work on things I would like to change.

I love to plan things out and my life is something that lately seems to be in a shredder. I think what I am looking towards is to plan my day. Just plan one day at a time and do the best I can with that day. I look forward to the start of August as this was going to be my month of reconnecting with myself. You would totally think I was a nut case by some of the things I have said...reconnecting with myself--who in the hell talks that way? I swear though, I'm out of touch with everything, including me. Time for a little R&R and to get back on the right track.

I haven't had a TGIF lately as things have been too busy to even focus on. I am grateful today that I have a fabulous dad who also happens to be a pharmacist and can answer all my questions about my bladder infection and pills. Nothing like telling Bob about ALL your business.