Love hate relationship

I have a love hate relationship with time. Some days I feel like superwoman and I have conquer the world. Other days I feel like there is no time to do things I enjoy or even those I don't. For instance, my blog. I might not be a blogger anymore. It's not that I don't have anything to say. Maybe it's more that I haven't been taking the time to do it. I worry about my lack of time and how much of it I want to spend with Carter. Being a full time working mom is not easy. My work day is packed and I no longer have a private office. So the thought of coming home, cleaning the house, feeding Carter and Kent, cleaning up, getting Carter ready for bed and then maybe write a quick blog seems daunting. Here's the thing though. As I looked back on my blog, particularly in the early days of it, I am bummed now at my lack of recent blogging. It has been so fun to relook at this time through these pages. So now I am torn, to keep blogging or not to keep blogging? My blog is private, so I can sort of write anything I like. Plus I looked again at archiving my blog through blog2print and it actually put the pages in a better format than years past. So...maybe I will try again to keep this archive going.

October 2011 has been an overwhelming month. My sweet little Carter had his first birthday. I have no photos to prove it yet, as good friends of ours documented the day, but I have a strong feeling it could be months before I get the pics. They feel things need to be perfect before they show me. It was an awesome party, with 50+ people, food that I made myself and joy for all. It almost killed me, but it was worth it. How often does your baby celebrate their first year! Here are a few sneak peeks they sent me.


My favorite so far!


He is such a thinker....


The giant cupcake I made him!

Besides celebrating this awesome time with Carter we have also found ourselves in the middle of craziness by putting our house on the market. It was a tough decision and it is a little weird not knowing what will be happening. This house has been a curse at times and a blessing. We are comfortable in it finally, but the payment is huge and we are wanting to downsize. It will be hard to give up, but I think it is the right thing to do. It has been on the market now for 10 days. There has been quite a bit of interest in it, even though it is a tough time to sell. Actually...I take that back- HOLY SHIT---Kent just called me and somebody has put an offer on my house. My crazy house that has been on the market for 10 days. Whoa, who knows what in the heck is going to happen now.

The world works in mysterious ways. Last night Kent and I discussed that we were going to just go with the flow and know that whatever happens will happen for our benefit. Yikes, I'm too freaked out to think right now....more to come!