Feelin' something

I swear, it as if the clouds have lifted (which they haven't...Seattle is grey and cold) and the birds have begun to sing because the moment I am done taking Clomid I am somewhat brought back to my normal personality. I seriously feel so much better. I am totally jacked for Vegas this week-end and the U2 show. I'm already planning my outfit. You would think it is the first day of school and I need to make a good impression with my new digs. The truth...I'm starting to feel REALLY old lately. Like I'm almost 35 and I've had to see what the kids are wearing. My younger co-worker carries a Toki Doki handbag, but that would be like super wrong on me. Plus a slumped over messenger bag on one side of the body only emphasises the hips. I'm opting for my new grey Converse and this navy shirt and jeans. Just hip enough for people to think, that's a cool older chick. But not too over the top that I'm that chick who is totally in denial about her age.

35..I remember when my mom was 35. She had permed hair, a super tan body and she watched Wheel of Fortune. She also had a 12 year old, that would be me. My mom and I have very little in common. I remember being a kid and how old I thought 35 was. It was ancient. I don't even have kids yet and my mom had a 12 year old. My poor future children. I am kick ass fun, don't get me wrong, but when my AARP membership arrives and my future daughters are still selling Girl Scout Cookies, that is not going to be so cool.

Right now though I am just seriously so happy feeling. I have no clue if we will do IUI on Friday. It will be a mad dash Friday morning as my plane leaves at 11:45. I hope the dude next to me doesn't mind my legs in the air to help with the mobility of my husband's deposit. As long as my seat belt is still on, it shouldn't be a problem. Things are good and I'm doing my best to focus on this. I know this will be a totally fun week-end and I'm not going to let fertility drama stand in my way.