The past few days I have been overcome by emotions. I cry at the drop of a hat. This morning a Folgers holiday commercial set me over the edge. Like sobbing, for an hour with feelings of sadness that my dream of being pregnant in 2009 will more than likely not happen. I did my best to get ready and arrived an hour late for work (good thing I'm the boss). As I enter the elevator 3, yes 3, pregnant women get on with me. We stop off at one of the floors with an OB/GYN clinic on it, two ladies step out, and in a mad commotion a wheel chair flies in with a pregnant woman, her husband and a nurse who are wheeling her to the hospital as her water broke in the office. I explained kindly to them that this elevator was going up, but they were so excited, the husband was on the phone, and I was left in the corner and the stream of tears began again.
On Saturday at 8am I will have an ultrasound to see if any follicles have produced from this round of clomid. With luck we will have an IUI on Sunday morning. I've been diligent about taking my Metformin and I've even found myself saying a few prayers to whoever is listening. I know we have only been trying for 8 months, but that doesn't make it any easier. The holiday traditions of family only elevate my desire to begin my own family.
As I did my best to compose myself at work I decided I needed to make the most of the next few days. I am looking forward to doing the cooking tomorrow and testing out several new recipes. I am still not sure if I will shop on Friday morning as we are not really doing the mad dash present scene this year. Just a few small gifts for everyone. Normally my parents buy my sister and I so many gifts that we literally need to take a break, almost an intermission, during the gift exchange. It will be a nice change this year to try and enjoy one anothers company and not focusing on all of our gifts. Kent and I have also been looking at ways to see our friends this holiday season without spending a fortune.
Here is to hope, gratitude and love for the life I have.
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The Official Day Our Journey Began
This is the story of the start of a marriage and starting a family. This is our journey; whatever road it takes us on we will be together through it all.
About Me
- Lisa
- Seattle, Wa, United States
- No longer a newlywed as we are now into our seventh year of marriage. I have a fabulous 5 year old boy and a 2 year old girl. I enjoy writing, yet time is not always on my side. I don't hold back and express exactly what is on my mind.
The Official Day Our Journey Began
4 comments:
Your post made my heart ache for you. My prayers are with you, especially for this IUI.
I'll be thinking about you on Saturday. I go in for an ultrasound on Monday to see if they Clomid worked for me too. It's definitely been hard lately with the holidays and everything, so I know how you feel. Hugs to you!
I'm am right there with you, on the emotional roller coaster. Sometimes I find myself crying and don't even know why. LOL! I can't believe you were on an elevator with THREE preg women! IF's are like magnets! Hoping your Thanksgiving is love filled! I'll be thinking of you on Saturday. Good luck!!!
Good luck at your appt tomorrow! I hope you see a good follie (or two) getting ripe for popping. Remember Clomid makes many of us ovulate later in our cycles so don't get discouarged if the IUI doesn't happen on Sunday. But prayers up that it does!
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