Happy Three Months of Happiness

We received a card and gift certificate in the mail yesterday from one of our wedding guests and it said, "Happy Three Months of Happiness." I first thought to myself, it can't already be three months. Then I actually switched gears and thought, has it really only been three months, it feels more like 6 months or even a year since our wedding day.

Patients ask me all the time, "How was the wedding," "How is everything" etc. I am actually totally honest with them. There are days that Kent and I are so in sync and days when I feel like we are polar opposites. There has been a tremendous amount of stress in our lives so it has affected our relationship and this supposed honeymoon phase we are to be in. The whole world is affected though; the economy is tough, job layoffs are rapid and there is an uncertainty about where we are all headed. This is truly the first time in my life that I have followed the Dow Jones and actually tried to understand what is happening. My future, my retirement does matter now. It feels SO far away, but in all honesty, it will be here quicker than I think.

I was telling a co-worker today that I wasn't terribly religious but I do believe that whoever is upstairs is not going to give me more than I can handle. I feel like my list of worries and stresses is at the breaking point, so I do hope that things calm down and return to their somewhat normal stages. I do know that I am on a bit of heightened sensitivity so even the smallest things, the most impractical things can push me to tears or cause anxiety. These are new symptoms in my life, but everyone cries and everyone gets fearful. My life has been pretty immune to craziness, drama and instability. My life is more than just myself now. It is a life with my fabulous husband who truly is doing the best he can. When I called him sobbing on Tuesday because my gynecologist said some truly mean and hurtful things about my weight, these were waiting for me when I came home.

Kent often tells me he is "bad with his words," but when your favorite flowers are waiting for you at home, you don't need to say anything at all. I, on the other hand, am the talker type and I do best when I can talk or write about my feelings. This is one of the reasons I chose to write this blog. It is just my little escape right now, and I am actually enjoying this. I enjoy thinking things through and putting them on this blog. I also love the fact that my husband reads this and thinks that it is funny sometimes and that I am a good writer. He is probably suppose to say those things even if he doesn't think it.

The front of the card we received shows a wedding get-away car with a sign that says Just Married. The inside of the card is imprinted with, "Best wishes for a long and happy ride." This will definitely be a ride baby, but I am so glad that I have you by my side. Happy Three Months of Happiness Kent....thank you for making all my dreams a reality. In true honesty, my life is better than I could have even dreamed of.