Blowing it

This was a packed week-end for Kent and I. Friday night we went to see the comedian Patton Oswalt. These tickets were an anniversary present for Kent, which he was excited about and we totally enjoyed. We attempted happy hour at Brasa before the event, but unfortunately the Metformin I take left me feeling super ill so I didn't get to enjoy myself. Also being on a new health goal sort of dampens my spirits at the bars/restaurants.

Saturday I made us blueberry pancakes (with some of our 11lbs of blueberries!) and I was cautious with my syrup...just a little dip every other bite. I spent the day cleaning and grocery shopping and getting ready to go and see Wicked. This was a show I have been waiting months to see and it was awesome. We were "bad" and treated ourselves after the show to coffee and ice cream. We did share the sundae and didn't finish it.

Sunday I went and had a massage and Kent spent time at his mom's house. We then drove to my parents house as we needed to pick up some items they have been storing for us. While we were driving out there I started feeling really sick again. The nausea from this medicine is the worst part. Also the explosive diarrhea (ED) is not that much fun either. I use ED in any excuse I can to get out of an event etc, because honestly, if someone told you they had ED you wouldn't keep bugging them to go to one more bar for another drink would you? Back to where I was...so I felt really sick again and the only thing that helps with the nausea is food, calming food like peanut butter sandwiches. Having PCOS I really shouldn't have bread etc. Well it seemed like I showed up at my parents house and immediately started grazing. So frustrating as it felt like almost a week's worth of thinking about my food choices etc were just blown away. I just blew my week's effort in two hours.

I am going to remain positive and realize there is no finish line to this race. This food/fitness thing of mine is never going to end. I am ancy to see results and to feel better about myself. I know this weight gain has been over the past 3 years and it will take time to lose. I am staying positive about our future and how to keep Kent and I happy and healthy. I just booked us a trip to Palm Springs over President's Day Week-end. Last year we didn't travel in the grey and depressing winter and it was awful. We will celebrate our joint birthday and valentines day that week-end. If we are lucky, we will be pregnant by then too!